Angelic Groove: Groove with me through the dark nights...

In response to Requiem's latest post on love and relationship, I decided to write about my thoughts about it.

We are unable to be true romantists in the kind of environment we are living in now. I maybe a romantist by heart, but sooner or later, I will change into a realist overtime. Which is not good. Thats why I used to think about leaving this materialistic country for a calm and peaceful environment, like in a countryside, where I can lead a peaceful life.

I kinda agree with Requiem that perfect romance are HARD to come by. I mean, in movies, you always happen to meet with that certain someone and that person happened to be your soulmate. As i said, in the kind of environment we are living in, we can no longer have fantasies of perfect romance. Look at the high divorce rates! I mean, if we have perfect romance in this world, why would married couples choose to quit just because they can't stand the pressure of having a family? Why would men stray after marriage? What got them into marriage is love isn't it? So just because they can't feel the love they're just going to quit and divorce one another to find another romance where they may even repeat the whole process again? But I think this only happens because of the environment we live in. The society's like that, so we became part of the society overtime.

After my relationship ended, I have alittle understanding of what love and relationships are like. A few years ago, before my first relationship, my cousin once told me that it is really better to have a person who love you more than you love him. At that time, I kind of agree because I had those unrequited love moments where you just happen to like a person who doesn't like you back. So I supposed having someone who loves you more will be better.

But now, after ending that relationship, I have to oppose to that statement because having someone who loves you more than you do to him is painful. Unless the gap between both of you are close, you will feel bad about having someone who loves you more. You feel alittle grateful for being treated well, but at the same time, although you feel for the person, the liking is not enough and you feel bad. And because of that, you tend to want to treat the person better, do things to please the person to replace that uneasiness you feel inside you.

Thats why, I rather that the love between both parties are equal, or for me to love the person more. Because I cannot stand having someone loving me more.

I realise something in me that I've always dismissed. I am a rather optimistic person, and although I have my depressed moments, I will always pick myself up after awhile and I will move on. So yah, thats me, and I will still look for someone to love and sincerely hope that the person will love me back as well. As I've said, I'm a romantist, I believe there's love in this world, but because of the society, we tend to feel cynical at times. Well, wait till love comes, all cynic thoughts will ba boom to outer space!~~ ^^

In the meantime, I shall seek a good life path and try not to dwell deep into this materialistic world. Is hard not to, especially for a business major student who's going to enter the tough corporate world, materialism is an addiction. But as I've said, I'm worried, but lets see how my life will turn out~. In the meantime, I shall enjoy these few months of student life~~~

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