Angelic Groove: Groove with me through the dark nights...

I actually have alot of things to say, but somehow, I didn't manage to log into blogger in time to remember them. But anyway, I've just catch Bleach manga 179 and Naruto 260. Both are equally good reads, since I get to see Byakuya's soft side as well as Itachi's smile in the two chapters.

And I have just finished up one of the projects in which I was the leader. I must say, I don't like being a leader..there are too many thing I have to handle, responsibilities to take and conflicts to handle. But I think I pull it off quite well, although in the group of five, only four of us are doing work. The other girl..well, she had her personal problems, causing her to be totally blanked out from school work. I don't know what to say, but to me, I feel she should have been more responsible in her work. I think no matter how bad the situation is, you must draw a line between personal and work matters.

While doing this project, I am also trying to overcome one of my personal matters. This matter leaves me completely drained and tired, and no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to shake that matter off. It doesn't help when I don't know what I am thinking is right. I couldn't really smile much, because I don't feel like smiling anymore. But I continued with the project, because I know life goes on.

And this matter is simply unresolved, because of my weak conviction. I hate confrontations, so to put it simply, I do not know how to approach this issue. I do not trust my opinions, but my opinions are the final judges to this matter. What I fear is that my judgement is wrong. If I resolve this matter wrongly, I will live to regret it. But on the otherhand, I have no wish to drag this issue any further..it has been with me since a few months ago, and it is still unresolved.

I just wish I am less wishy washy and put more effort to resolve this issue. But how can I do it when I know the outcome is not going to be pretty? I wish I have an answer to this...

And I have two more projects plus upcoming exams..but I guessed I should hold this issue till after my exams, when I have more time to think about it. The people who I've consulted tell me to think thoroughly before I act. I think I will...definitely..

Okay, I think I am going to die soon if I didn't start producing stuff for my other projects..T_T...

Good nitey~!

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