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Name: IvyNick: Ironyv
Age: 23
Gender: Female
Birthday: 30 November
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
Country: Singapore
Interests: Makeup, Reading books, Reading manga, watching anime, listening to music, slacking
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- End of project 1: Unresolved issue
- My Bleach Post:End of SasuNaru arc
- Expectations and more expectations
- Naruto episode 132:Steam Boy
- Themes: Values learnt in Animes/Manga
- New Blogskin!!~
- Death's knocking on the door
- Life:Choices
- Relationship that goes on for too long...
- Another boring week:Jrocking!~
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Monday, May 23, 2005
Yeah...I somehow recall something that I wanted to write out now so here I am, blogging once again..
I am a dreamer. I sat on the bus, watching the scenaries pass by and I daydreamed. I sleep and I dreamed. But I live in my dreams. I replayed images of has been or had been in my mind and twisted it around. Things I have regretted, how would it be if I didn't do what I had done, or said what I should say. Past mistakes will be brought up and replayed in my mind, and I will change it so that I made no mistakes at all. But it is impossible, because once I change it, I feel regretful, because in my mind I imagined a good ending, but in actual fact, it never happened.
Then I will imagine of might be, like if I die now, what will happen to the people around me. I often do that, I will imagine my own funeral, i will think about how people will react to my death. Or i will imagine I have a major illness, and what will happen when I am dying on the bed, with people around me. Will I say anything, or will I just die.
I will imagine what I will happen to me if I speak up to my mum, if i leave the house, if I go abroad, if I become successful...and many many other things...
You may say I am really free to think such things, but no, all these are thoughts while riding on the MRT or bus alone, while trying to get to sleep, while doing nothing at all. And sometimes, I really wish I can live in my dreams, because I will make it so fine in there that it will be a happy ending.
But when I snapped back to reality, it looks so bleak to me..but thats reality. Reality never looks good anyway. Escaping is no use, but that doesn't stop me from not doing so. I escaped to my own dreams because I am weak, I am unable to makes my good dreams come true. So I will live in my dreams until one day when I am stronger, and tougher to pull my dreams from my mind into reality. Till now, I shall continue to dream, to imagine my success. For without it, I will not have the desire to seek success in my life and my life will be meaningless.
I am a dreamer. I sat on the bus, watching the scenaries pass by and I daydreamed. I sleep and I dreamed. But I live in my dreams. I replayed images of has been or had been in my mind and twisted it around. Things I have regretted, how would it be if I didn't do what I had done, or said what I should say. Past mistakes will be brought up and replayed in my mind, and I will change it so that I made no mistakes at all. But it is impossible, because once I change it, I feel regretful, because in my mind I imagined a good ending, but in actual fact, it never happened.
Then I will imagine of might be, like if I die now, what will happen to the people around me. I often do that, I will imagine my own funeral, i will think about how people will react to my death. Or i will imagine I have a major illness, and what will happen when I am dying on the bed, with people around me. Will I say anything, or will I just die.
I will imagine what I will happen to me if I speak up to my mum, if i leave the house, if I go abroad, if I become successful...and many many other things...
You may say I am really free to think such things, but no, all these are thoughts while riding on the MRT or bus alone, while trying to get to sleep, while doing nothing at all. And sometimes, I really wish I can live in my dreams, because I will make it so fine in there that it will be a happy ending.
But when I snapped back to reality, it looks so bleak to me..but thats reality. Reality never looks good anyway. Escaping is no use, but that doesn't stop me from not doing so. I escaped to my own dreams because I am weak, I am unable to makes my good dreams come true. So I will live in my dreams until one day when I am stronger, and tougher to pull my dreams from my mind into reality. Till now, I shall continue to dream, to imagine my success. For without it, I will not have the desire to seek success in my life and my life will be meaningless.
ironyv at 11:16 AM
